oceana

(or: another Friday evening in the life of Oceana)

Meeting, which was supposed to be over at 11a.m., is now over.

It is now 9 hours later than 11 a.m.

In other words, it is 8 p.m. on a Friday evening.

I'm now doing the rest of the work I was supposed to do today.

Nobody has shot me yet.

Sadly.

I've been involved in fandom for more than 8 years now. I know, doesn't seem like such a long time, but it's longer than the average marriage.

I've learned many things during my time in fandom. (Many of them involve gay sex, but that's besides the point.)

One of the things I learned is that it's not a smart thing to start reading a 39-chapter fanfic at 1 a.m.


Know what I haven't learned yet?


Not to start reading a 39-chapter fanfic at 1 a.m.

*headdesk*

I've slept five hours tonight.

This is a good thing, because it means I went to bed at 2.30 and got up at 7.25, instead of going to bed at 3.30 and getting up at 6.50, like I usually do.I don't mean to, but I wake up at 6.50 like a clockwork on weekends. That it didn't do it today means is the first step on number 1 in my good intentions:

1) Get more sleep
I don't think I'll ever make it to seven hours, but I figure a regular six hours would be ok for starters. I'm just afraid that the constant lack of sleep will get to me one day. Plus, I'm 31 one, so I'm not getting any younger, and not sleeping definitely doesn't help stopping the aging process.

So, more sleep it is.

It'll also help me accomplish goal 2:

2) Lose weight
Because people who sleep a lot are less likely to be overweight. Also, because I can't eat at night if I sleep, and I often eat at night. Or wake up and eat. Which, I won't even get into it, but my eating has been messed up for years,and I'm going to change that as well. It's about time.

Losing weight fits nicely with goal 3:

3) Get back into shape
And I don't mean my body, though I've been unhappy with that for years (hence the losing weight thing). I mean the general me. I've been so caught up in my busy life, my career, my horse, and frankly, content with it right down to being single for years, that I've neglected myself a little bit. I'm still content to be single, but I notice that lately I'm not the one to turn heads any more if I walk into a bar, and frankly, I don't like it. Doesn't have anything to do with wanting a man/woman, it's just an ego thing. So, get a hair cut, get some regular manicures, treat myself to a massage now and then. Dress up, cause you don't own all those heels just for looking at them, girl. You gotta face that a 31 yers old body takes a bit more maintenance than a twenty year old one.

Oh, I'm so looking forward to this.

But, because of the road to hell and everything: baby steps. Baby steps that start with me finally starting to do the things that have been on my to do list since the beginning of the year (and longer). I just don't know where those first four months of 2009 went, but I know that if I don'T start now, it'll be 2010 and I'll still have the same things on my to do list that I do today.

So, just thought I'd let you know that soon you'll have the new, improved version of Oceana on your flist, Oceana 2.0 if you want.

Meanwhile, I'll be over here, cleaning the kitchen with my freshly manicured nails.

ETAOMG AM I HAVING A MIDLIFE CRISIS???? I can't believe I'm having a fucking midlife crisis!!!!
*panics*

Oh.
My.
God.



(it's the one night I'm getting almost 6 hours sleep, but will I be able to sleep after this? I don't think so.)

*LOVES SHOW MORE THAN SHOULD BE POSSIBLE*



P.S.: If any of you are not yet watching NCIS, please leave a comment. I will immediately (note: immediately in terms of Oceana_ after she started her new life the OMG!Horse!!! means somewhere between 1 and 2 weeks) list not only the ten best reasons why you should watch NCIS, but also the ten reasons why your life completely sucks if you don't. Fellow NCIS fen, you've seen my definition of immediately, feel free to help me out.)

I have an amazing number of unanswered comments in my inbox. This
isn't - as one is tempted to think - because I have received so many
comments recently. Far from it. It's just that I haven't answered any
in the last, oh, two months or so, ever since I got the OMG!HORSE!
(sorry, I just can't help myself).

Sorry about that.

I think it explains why nobody comments anymore, though.

I would promise to answer them this weekend, but I'm still hesitating
with myself if I should go to a party (which involves leaving the
house. And the city.) or not. If not, I might answer comments. It'll
be all exciting, the last ones are from somewhen in June. Heh.

In the meantime, if you are urgently waiting for an answer to anything
(whatever could eb so important?), please do not hesitate to comment.
It'll give me even more to do in case I stay at home.

Which is rather likely, what with parties being these grisly, loud
events with lots of strangers, smoking, drinking, making out with each
other in dark corners...
oookay, party it is!

(oh, I wish it were that kind of party, but they seem to have
disappeared with my teenage years...)

Came home from work 20 minutes ago (it's shortly after 1 a.m. over here, in case you were wondering), ate for the first time since lunch and the second time today (no, wait, technically lunch was yesterday): And the rest of the week wasn't much better. I'm tired (not enough not to turn on the computer first thing) and bored with work (I keep doing the same thing over and over again and it gets me nowhere but slowly drives me crazy.)

I've also lost my great "post every day, answer all comments" track record that I had going here since the beginning of the year. Grrr. Argh.

But, people on my flist have been mentioning Methos in passing, so not all is bad. Now I'll sleep, disappear for the weekend and start all over again on Monday.
Good night.
*dreams about the time Methos was an evil lawyer*