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POST CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR THE EPISODE "TWO DAUGHTERS"

Dear Don,

Don, oh Don. Have I told you lately how much I love you? But now, now you are breaking my heart, and that's just not right. You characters from crime shows like Numb3rs get to entertain me, thrill me, turn me on on occasion, but you don't get to break my heart. Heart-breaking is reserved for Stargate, with it's love and loss and fighting the aliens. People who went to hell and back, literally, who not only watched their loved ones die but died themselves.

And now you do it, by giving these looks, like the one you had when Edgerton passed you to go into the interrogation room. The one you gave your father when he asked you how far you went to get Megan back. The one you had right before you slipped on your sunglasses after you shot Crystal.

You tell me about your room full of boxes and say "Don't underestimate how great it is to come home and have somebody to talk to." and my heart just crumbles into a million pieces.

Oh Don. I love you so much.

Oceana


Dear Agent Edgerton,

I hesitate to call you Ian. Caution tells me to keep my distance from you, for who knows how deep I will fall if I don't? I'm even beginning to think that I'm attracted to you, and I'm really really not, but maybe I am, and that's a path just littered with confusion and issues that I just don't want to walk.

So if you please just could stop saying things like "Hunting didn't change me, it chose me." and understanding everyone around you so damn well, but keeping it all filed inside for future use? Oh, and if you never touched a gun again when I can see you, that would also help a lot.

Thank you,

Oceana
P.S.: Who do I need to sleep with for you to get a role as regular on Numb3rs? I'm almost willing to do it, too. As I said, confusion and issues and you are clearly one more unstable element with a bad influence in my life that I don't need.




Dear Charlie,

you are adorable, and I loved how you were acting in the background in this episode. Stay focused, trust the math, you did it despite the emotional impact Megan's abduction clearly had on you, too. I want to have sex with your brain all the time, but unfortunately, I'm already in love with your brother, so I don't know if there will ever be a future for us. If I had been Amita, I would have kissed you in your office, when your lips were just waiting for it, smiling and and so so close. I honestly don't know how she could stand not to kiss you in this moment.

You make me happy.

Love,
Oceana




Dear Megan,

you are wonderful, strong and human, and one of the female characters who manages to pull that off without looking as if they are just pretending. You open your heart to those around you in a way I never could, and I wish you could be my role model, but our realities and characters are too different for that. Seeing you with Larry makes me so happy, and it gives me hope. Seeing you at work makes me happy in a very different way, and it gives me hope, too.

I admire and I love you,

Oceana



Dear Larry,
you know that I find you adorable, but you really need to get over your issues and let yourself love Megan the way she deserves it. And by issues I don't mean your little oddities, Megan loves them, we all do. I mean the issue you have with getting close to someone, the fear of handing over too much of your freedom and loneliness. And I can't wait to watch you go through that process,

Love,

Oceana





Dear Amita,

I know you like Charlie. I admire you for being brave enough to try and have a relationship with him, for trying to love him. I don't know if maybe you are already past the point where you can make this work, but for your sake, I hope that you aren't, cause I wouldn't want to see you get hurt. But you already knew that getting hurt was a very real possibility when you went into this, which makes you even braver for trying.

I wish I had the courage to do the same.

Oceana



Dear Mr Eppes,

you are the best father Charlie and Don could ever had. I don't know who I envy more: you for having them, or them for having you. I wish I could be a ghost in your house and watch you interact with your sons forever.

Love,

Oceana





Dear David,

I wish I knew you better, but even after 2 years, you are still a puzzle to me. The only time I think I see a glimpse of what you are is when you are interacting with victims or witnesses. You are so different from Don and Colby, nicer. When I see you talk to victims or witnesses, I can only think that you would be the one I'd want to tell my story too, wait for your calm questions and the way you stick to the facts without being cold about them.

But then you turn around and do exactly the opposite and I don't know what to think of you anymore.
I think we could be better friends if you didn't try so hard to be so cool.

Best wishes,

Oceana





Dear Colby,

I like you better every episode, and since I liked you from the beginning, I have now quite a bit of like for you. You are just so...likeable, when you wonder why Megan didn't tell you that she dates Larry, or when you stare at Charlie in doubt during one of his mathematical forays, and then turn your obvious crush into a "you just nod your head and wait for the punchline" manly bonding comment to Ian. Careful, Colby, he's got an agenda of his own when it comes to Charlie!

You are competent and you lost some of the temper you showed in the beginning, but not your heat. You know how much of a control freak I am, and what seeing you learning to control yourself does to me. I love how you drop these little sentences from time to time that remind me that there is so much more behind you than we can see on the show. I hope we'll get to explore your character a bit more in future episodes.

When you work with Don and Ian is also more testosteron than I can take without jumping through the screen and doing, I don't know what, but I can live with it. In fact, I enjoy it a lot, so if you can help me in my efforts to keep Agent Edgerton on the show, let me know, and we'll figure out a way to collaborate.

Can't wait to see you again next week,

Oceana



Dear Friendslist,

you ignored (mostly) all my recent attempts to talk about my Don-love or Numb3rs in general. What's worse, none of you commented on last night's Numb3rs episode. What's up with that? I know, I am not posting about Eppes-'cest and that makes me rather uninteresting in this fandom. But I love the show, and I need someone to share the squee with, just as I need to squee about unexpected Numb3rs posts on my flist. Of which there weren't any. In fact, the lack of Numb3rs posts made me read 'cest (and I almost enjoyed it, too), that's how much Numb3rs there wasn't.

You are all fired,

Oceana